I attended BAP at Shallowford House, Stone, Staffordshire between 14-16 May 2012. BAP is the conference mechanism used by the CofE to discern whether Candidates offering for Ordained Ministry and sponsored by their Diocesan Bishop, meet the Ordination Criteria.
The panel is organised with 16 candidates attending, split into two syndicates. Six Assessors are appointed, three to each syndicate. The Ministry Division administrator for Ordained Ministry attends as the Panel Secretary.
The Assessors cover three main areas; Vocation, Pastoral and Educational. They assess against several of the nine criteria for Ordination, with a necessary overlap for some criteria. For example, Vocation impinges on all of the other eight criteria.
The journey to Shallowford for me was 174 miles, with many candidates travelling much further. One flew in from the Diocese of Europe in Spain.
Shallowford house is a former country house, set in its own grounds, which was left to the Diocese of Lichfield about 60 years ago for use as a Retreat and Study Centre.
The house, much modernised, retains its Victorian charm and the grounds are well kept, with lovely gardens and fields to walk in, one of which has a Labyrinth cut into the grass. It is a peaceful setting, which despite the presence of the West Coast main line railway running past it, seems in some way, to have retained its aura of a country house.
Meeting the candidates and assessors was a joy. Every single one was enthused and very aware of why we were there and the significance of the deliberations over the three days.
Day one of the panel consisted of settling in, briefings and worship and a lively exercise in getting to know each other, ending at about 9 pm. Part of this was the completion of a Personal Inventory, which was challenging to complete in the 40 minutes allocated.
Day two of the panel commenced a routine of Worship, Meals, Delivering Presentations, Chairing a discussion on the presentation (and contributing to the discussion in turn). Followed by one to one interviews with each of the three syndicate assessors on their respective subject areas.
In my case, I slightly abandoned the script for my presentation, but was able to bring out the missed points in the discussion phase. All of us in the syndicate joined in with supporting and encouraging our contemporaries, by being attentive and engaging in the discussion(s) making the process, while a little pressured by time constraints, enjoyable and productive. One assessor, observing, saying that they really wanted to join in, but had to remain neutral - which is I believe a compliment to the quality of both presentations and discussions.
Interviews: After lunch we moved to individual interviews, I had one (Vocation) on the the second day and a further two on the third day. I had gone with the Bishop’s words in my mind. “Not to much preparation and rehearsal” and “concentrate on one or two things” and “be yourself and enjoy the process”. I did exactly that. Whether or not I prepared enough, will not become clear until the results are announced late next week - but I was challenged by each interview, particularly the one on Vocation. I found all of them enjoyable, and actually found myself laughing at some of the things I shared with the assessors.
Pastoral Exercise: We also had to complete a pastoral exercise over the three days, which involved writing a letter of not more than 500 words on a set pastoral situation. The exercise challenged me, but I thanked God for the insights of the preparation of a diocesan panel and one day of pre-BAP activity earlier this year, prior to BAP.
The people. Overall, everyone was fantastic, both assessors and fellow candidates. There was much humour about, as well as story telling as we recounted to each other our individual journeys, each were unique, and each were inspirational. They came from vastly different backgrounds from someone already in Lay Pioneer Ministry to those involved in Fresh Expressions and New Wine arrangements, it really helps to widen the perspective of someone involved in parochial lay ministry and perhaps even gives insights into how future vocation may change and take you.
The Worship was organised and provided by the assessors. We had a compline, two HC, One MP and one Day prayer during the 2.5 days together. The choice of hymns, Psalms etc was inspired and corporate worship, despite the variety of traditions was wonderful. Time was plentiful for quiet prayer, for walking the grounds and labyrinth and to just ‘be’.
Social. There was a bar open, but I found myself so tired each evening, finishing at 9 pm, that I didn’t avail myself of it. But, we had ample opportunities to socialise during meal times and free-time between interviews and on the many, useful tea/coffee breaks provided in the programme.
Atmosphere. The overall atmosphere was one of prayerfulness, mixed with some nervousness from some (including me) and trepidation on what to expect from the interviews in particular. There was pressure of time, but the reality is that most pressure is self generated by candidates upon themselves. But humour abounded and was evident from everyone. I actually think that the church has got this right, because having heeded the Bishop’s words, I actually enjoyed the process.
What Now?
We all await with baited breath the outcome of the panel, which will be announced in a week or so. We can expect to be given the verdict by our DDO or Bishop.
I hope and pray that I am recommended for Training, but know that it’s God’s will that is the overriding authority. I pray that it any vocation that I have is discerned in the wisdom and knowledge that I know the assessors possessed.
Tuesday, 22 May 2012
Saturday, 19 May 2012
Things Happen - Thoughts on Suffering
Originally posted on the #digidisciple blog on 10th May 2012
Things Happen! – Thoughts on Suffering #BigBible @minidvr
I often wonder about things? How and why they happen. Perhaps ‘cause and effect’. For an atheist ‘suffering’ is just an accident of nature, which might or might not have a scientific or philosophical explanation, but it’s one of their evidences that God doesn’t exist.
Coming from a Christian perspective, we believe that things happen because either God wills them, or because mankind, going against the will of God, causes bad things to happen. ‘Simples’ as the Meerkat says.
However, life isn’t that simple and good and bad things happen all of the time, which cause me to stop and think, either ‘how wonderful’ or more often ‘how awful’, and I ponder on how and why God allows natural disasters and suffering to persist in the world?
It appears that Suffering is the symptom of man exercising his free will and sinning. Sin is anethmae to God, who sent Jesus to rescue man from his sin through his death and resurrection. Our continuing sin, contributes to continuing suffering and allows God’s work to be seen in the word? We haven’t got a good bargain there then!
It seems that God allowed the creation of sin and suffering in the first place? This is the paradox. Cause and effect equal cause and effect in a never ending cycle, until God’s will is done. And it will only be done, when Jesus comes again.
Looking for guidance I find:
Isaiah 55.8 tells us that God thinks and acts on a level different from ours. He sees things from a much broader overview. From our perspective, it’s as though we were putting together a jigsaw puzzle with many of the pieces missing. What part of the picture are we failing to see?[2] God has a plan!
Paul says that “I have been crucified with Christ” (Gal: 2.2) and “I complete what is lacking in Christ’s afflictions for the sake of His body, that is, the Church (Coll 1.24). He really underlines it with : “For it has been granted to you that for the sake of Christ you should not only believe in him but also suffer for his sake” (Phil 1:29). God’s plan in fruition!
Jesus himself points us towards suffering for his sake. ““I can of Myself do nothing. As I hear, I judge; and My judgment is righteous, because I do not seek My own will but the will of the Father who sent Me.” (John 5:30)God’s will is being seen to be done!
This is all well and good, but when we are seeing so much death and destruction wrought around the world and in people’s lives – how can we reconcile ourselves to the fact the we seem predestined to suffering, with no control over how and why it happens, even if our freewill is used for the good, there are so many others where it isn’t. It is a hard a burden to bear? It’s certainly not the bargain we signed up to, we had no choice in it, it was created for us.
Ah, We’re told that God’s plan includes suffering to allow God’s work to be visible in the world. So, cause and effect is God’s way of helping us to obey the two greatest commandments (Mark 12:28-31). Because these two commandments underpin all of the law given to us through scripture and the biblical stories of the Jews as the chosen people.
I read this commentary:[3]
Evil and suffering are real – not illusions. They are ‘intrusions’ into the good world God originally made. The bible tells how when Jesus came to earth he stood outside the tomb of his best friend Lazarus and saw the bereaved sisters: When Jesus saw her weeping, and the Jews who had come along with her also weeping, he was deeply moved in spirit and troubled. (John 11:33) Literally he was ‘angry’ – death was seen by Jesus as a violent and horrible invasion into his Father’s world.
Ultimately, suffering is linked to our rebellion against our Maker. It is a reminder that the world we live in is ‘out of sorts’ with God and stands under judgment. ‘Therefore, just as sin entered the world through one man, and death through sin, and in this way death came to all men, because all sinned–’ (Romans 5:12)
This does not mean that every ‘item’ of suffering is a direct punishment from God. This was a question the disciples asked of Jesus about a man born blind: ’Who sinned, this man or his parents?’ Jesus’ reply pointed them beyond the suffering to God’s rescuing purposes in himself – “Neither this man nor his parents sinned,” said Jesus, “but this happened so that the work of God might be displayed in his life.” (John 9:3)
Both man made suffering and ‘natural’ suffering should focus our minds on ultimate issues, causing us not so much to ask ‘Why doesn’t God do something about this?’ but “what is my response to this? How might I change?”
Finally, some enlightenment. It’s not in fact God’s plan to allow suffering. It’s not God’s plan to allow sin and death. God’s plan was subverted by Man’s free will, and by the actions of Adam and Eve, tempted by the serpent, which caused original sin, caused the fall of man, caused mortal death and decay and caused sin and evil in the world. If I change, perhaps others will change. If others change, we may get the ‘wave’ effect we see at large sporting events. The stone cast in the pond, causing the ripples to spread wider and wider. God’s will coming to its true fruition.
Monday, 7 May 2012
Induction of Rev'd Lesley Crawley : 6 May 2012
Induction of Rev’d Lesley Crawley - St Mark’s Church, Upper Hale - Sunday 6 May 2012
On Sunday 6th May 2012, I and my spouse Jen, were invited to attend the Induction of the Rev’d Lesley Crawley as an associate priest to her husband’s benefice at St Mark’s Church, Upper Hale, Nr Farnham
in Hampshire. I had known Lesley, via the medium of the internet, her blog, via twitter and facebook for several years. I had participated with her blog, and she had in many ways, helped me to develop and to grow as a
Christian, while also seeking to explore a vocation to ordained ministry.
We jumped at the chance to finally meet Lesley and her husband in person, and possibly to network with others attending the service.
The Induction service was conducted by The Bishop of Dorking, The Right Rev’d Ian Brackley. It included the commissioning of a new Ministry Team for St Mark’s and the Benefice.
We arrived, in true military fashion, early for the event. And were met and greeted by ‘Winston’ who explained what was happening. Another welcomer, directed us to Rev’d
Lesley, who we met for the very first time. She made us welcome, but given it was a few moments before the service, we only had a brief conversation. We took our seats and almost immediately, Laura Sykes aka @layanglicana
and her husband came and sat alongside us. After introductions, we prepared for the service.
St Mark’s is a mid-Victorian build church, with walls rendered externally with local stone. Internally, it has some really lovely wall murals and paintings particularly in
the Chancel. It has been reordered in the recent past and is blessed with the addition of a parish centre, with modern facilities added onto the rear of the church.
The church was full to overflowing and the first hymn ‘Thine be the Glory’ played by a combination of Organ and music group, resounded to the rafters. I haven’t heard
such singing in a parish church, outside of Christmas or Easter ever.
We moved into the service which was Common Worship, with appropriate adaptions for the induction and licensing of the ministry team. We both found it prayerful and joyful for
those participating. The atmosphere was electric with anticipation and agape love was there in abundance. Bishop Ian delivered a warm sermon linked to the Gospel reading which prepared us for the induction and licensing.
Lesley’s induction and licensing was enlightening for both of us, who hadn’t seen one before. It was obvious that Lesley was happy and beaming as was Alan, her spouse and
incumbent. It included the prayerful part and formal part of swearing of oaths, which highlights the place of the CofE as the Established Church with the Queen as Governor. It seemed incongruous in some way to mention the
Book of Common Prayer, in a Common Worship service, but I rejoice that it retains an honoured place in this liturgy.
The rest of the service seemed to fly by. There were so many communicants, that it took some time. It was great to receive the Blood of Christ from Lesley herself, strangely,
it seems just appropriate on the day. The Choir sang hymns alongside the communion, ‘Will you leave yourself behind, If I call your name’ which is used in our parish and I love it. The closing hymn was the upbeat worship
song ‘All the tree’s in the fields will clap their hands’ which I have sung before, the second rendition greatly sped up, caught me out, but in a nice way.
After the service there was the opportunity to mingle with the parishioners and to share food and drink informally and of course to have a wider conversation with Lesley and
her husband Alan. In the end, I and my spouse spoke to a number of different individuals, my spouse being quite good at the circulating thing, while I remained static and spoke with those around me. I ended up in an Ecumenical
conversation with Rev’d Alan and the local RC Parish Priest, Fr Dave. It’s surprising how much we have in common on a person-to-person basis. This is when what divides us disappears and you see the local church for what
it really is an can be. A partnership in the community in the name of Christ.
Sadly, we had to leave before the bun fight finished, but departed heartened by our visit, and grateful for our welcome, the fellowship of everyone we met and of course the friendship
pouring forth from Lesley and Alan.
We came away refreshed and joyful. I came away affirmed that at local level, in a completely different place from my own comfort zone, the church is alive, well and flourishing.
That’s the story that doesn’t make the news, or get into the national media. Quiet work and pastoral care locally, building the kingdom day by day, hour by hour with each other.
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